It's Been A While!

Well, it looks like I'm back here again! I jjust couldn't find the time to update for the longest time. There are so many things that have happened since I last posted in December, that I just can't wait to share with everyone.

First, I have found out Belly Bean's gender since early December. Belly Bean, or Sweet Tooth, is now being referred to as Beau Alexander. That's right! He's a boy! He is absolutly perfect in every possible way, and I can hardly wait to meet him! We're all so close to it now it's hard to fathom it! I just can't wait to be holding my new little man in my arms, I can hardly stand the excitement. I really think Hunter understands what is going on to some level. He knows there is a baby in mommy's tummy, and he knows that he will come home with us eventually, but like a toddler, I don't think that he realizes that the baby is going to be his brother, and that the baby will stay with us. Oh well, you can't expect miricles from a toddler, haha.

Another thing is that Brent and I celebrated our one year anniversary on the 28th of April. It's hard to believe that we have made it an entire year. I'm even more surprised that he doesn't think I'm a dragon lady with all the pregnancy hormones being thrown at him. He is absolutly perfect. Brent is my other half, the man I should have been with all along, not Hunter's father. I can't bring myself to regret that decision though, to be with Hunter's sperm doner of a father, because that brought me one of the greatest gifts I have ever recieved, Hunter.

Brent and I have finally moved in together. Well, technically, we moved in with my friend in New Jersey, but we finally did it, we moved away from our parents. Things in both of our houses were hurting us and our future. We had started to get in fights constantly, and it was hard to be around him sometimes because of our situation, but now that we're in a better place, we're much happier, and I'm so much happier that Hunter is in a better place. It was such a toxiv place for all of us to be. It was going to ruin us if we didn't get out of there when we did. We're not planning on staying with my friend forever. We're really hoping to get out of here before Beau is born. My friend, Kara, says she doesn't mind having us there at all. She was living alone for a while and she loves the company, and how aliver her house is now. She especially loves being close to Hunter though. She is his godmother, and she rarely ever got to see him before now. Brent and I are hoping to find a place close to Kara so that we can still be close.

Today was a very sad day for me. My friend, Angie, told me that she has Peripheral T-Cell Lymphoma. It's a form of lung cancer. We hadn't spoken for a few months. She had been in and out of hospitals for a while, but the doctors had no idea what was wrong with her, then they took a lymph node sample and did a biopsy on it and it turns out she was very sick. I can't even fathom handling it as well as she is. She is in a government hospital in Maryland. They are doing research on her, and she has 5 more months of chemo left. She tells me that after the chemo, she will be fine, but will she really? Cancer is such an unpredictable thing that she could be gone tomorrow, or she can live a long, happy, healthy life. I just don't even know what to think anymore.

Also, a good friend of mine joined the marines a while ago, and he got shipped out the other day. He is in Nagasaki, Japan right now. I don't know how long he will be gone, but I'm praying to god that he will be fine.

I've never been a religious person before, but lately I've been finding more and more things to pray for and be thankful about. I'm so greatful for everything that has been given to me, and everything that is soon to come. I find myself thanking god for a healthy son, and for the beautiful boy in my stomach. I thank him for the man that I hope to one day call my husban. I'm praying for him to help me find a house soon, and that Beau will be perfect when he is born. I'm praying for him to make my friend healthy, and I'm praying that he helps my friend Chris, come back from war safely. I can't help but feel selfish asking for so many things without giving anything back.

Hopefully everything will be alright though.